15 I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate. 16 But if I know that what I am doing is wrong, this shows that I agree that the law is good. 17 So I am not the one doing wrong; it is sin living in me that does it.
Do you ever feel as if you just want to be done with sins? Have you ever felt as if you should just be passed a certain sin and then all of a sudden you find yourself back in a place where you had no intention of being in?
The unfortunate thing, we very much know that all sin does is lead to destruction and wounds that were never meant to reopen. Yet, sometimes... temptation wins.
Falling back to where you once said you would never go back to is an upsetting feeling. It brings out the old you, memories, and past pain. You may even start to feel convicted after committing the same sin again because you knew it was wrong to do. Then, you find yourself back to square one repenting over something again and again.
When you repeat the same thing over and over again, there should be a surprise when there is no growth. How could there be growth in your spiritual life if you are not willing to let go of things in your life that are stopping you from the destiny that Christ called you to? It is easy to get discouraged and to want to stay in a place that feels comfortable.
Growth only comes when you are willing to change some things around in your life. Maybe you have to:
cut out some friends you hang with.
end a dating relationship.
find a new job.
move from your current living situation.
Whatever the case may be, there is always something we can do to better ourselves in the sense that we do not fall back into something that God calls closed.
The most crucial, there needs to be self-discipline. Trust your relationship with Christ. Know that he can grow you into the person you are designed to be... if you just trust the process. Stepping away from certain sins is hard and it takes work and patience. You need to know the value of your worth. As well as, you need to know how valuable you are to God.
Christ created you for significant importance. It is easy to fall back, have the strength to stand up, and to fight the enemy each and every day. It is never easy. Just remember: Christ loves you and he free willing died for your sins so that all your sins can be forgiven.