"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
I can definitely testify that fear has won a couple battles against me. I am not talking about fear of spiders or walking alone in the dark. I am talking about that fear you have when you are laying in bed and all you can think of is everything that is going wrong.
You may think to yourself...
I am fearful that maybe one day I will go back to my old ways. I am fearful that maybe I will never get a breakthrough. I am fearful that maybe I won't get this job opportunity. I am fearful that I will never make it in life. I am fearful that what I am doing is not enough. I am fearful that my finances will never improve. I am fearful that my relationship will never satisfy me. I am fearful of never being good enough.
The worst enemy can sometimes be ourselves. I did not realize it until one day I was sitting in front of the mirror and seeing an unhappy girl. I saw a girl that was insecure, scarred and fearful of everything. I did not realize that the reason of fear comes from ourselves. Our mind is always playing tricks on us.
One thing you should know about fear, have the ability to trust God's word. We all know the story of Jesus walking on water (Matthew 14: 22-33). Peter was fearful and did not trust Jesus when Jesus asked Peter to walk on the water. Peter feared but he also knew that Jesus is truly worthy in times of deep despair and failure. We have all felt like Peter, we want to trust but we are just so scared of the outcome.
When I was beginning my spiritual journey, fear was at my highest. I was scarred to pray and ask God for forgiveness. I was scarred to tell Him my problems because I felt as if my problems were not enough. I was unsure and broken. That is when I stumbled across Isaiah 41, God's help for Israel.
When there is fear there is no faith. When there is faith there is no fear. As Christ followers it is our responsibility to believe in the promise God has for us. When all seems to be broken and lost, believe in His word. I can not tell you that the pain is going to go away but I can promise you that His word is true.
I was a insecure scarred girl but now I am a strong fearless women.